The three o'clock chapter Adele Merchant

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The three o'clock chapter

Every book I have written has one chapter that will not come, and it is always the same chapter.

by Adele Merchant 1 minute read

Every book I have written has a chapter that will not come. It is never the first, which writes itself out of enthusiasm, and never the last, which writes itself out of relief. It is the one about two thirds through, where the reader has worked out roughly what is happening and the writer has to keep them turning pages anyway.

I used to think this was a fault in me. Now I think it is simply where the book stops being an idea and starts being a book.

What I do about it

Nothing clever. I write the chapter badly, on purpose, in one sitting, and I do not read it back for a week. A bad version of a scene is a thing you can fix. A blank page is not a thing at all, it is an argument you are having with yourself.

The trick, if it is a trick, is that the bad version is never as bad as the fear of it. Nine times in ten I open it a week later and find two paragraphs worth keeping and a clear view of what the rest should have been.

A first draft is not a worse version of the book. It is the only thing that can become the book.

The part nobody tells you

The chapter that fights hardest is usually the one carrying the most weight. If it were easy it would probably be doing nothing. When I catch myself circling a scene for days, I have learned to ask whether the difficulty is bad writing or whether it is the book telling me this is the moment everything turns on.

Usually it is the second. Which is not a comfort exactly, but it does mean the struggle is a signal rather than a verdict.

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